Still thinking were to start since there are lots of words to say....

4 more days to go and 2010 chapter is over....looking back everything seems so right but still have regrets for some things...but given a chance to change some of it, i guess i still don't know know how to make things right :( I guess because up until now i don't really know what i want (Oh GOD help me)...

Been out of my mind lately, one of my friend asked me why am i keeping myself so drunk... honestly i don't know and I hate myself so much that I can’t even think straight anymore. there are lots of things here in my mind that makes me crazy lately and the sad part is - I'm the type of a person were in i will carry everything on my own up to the point were in I'm too exhausted and the only way i know to ease the pain is to drink and cry :( i guess it's time for me to finish reading the book to know my purpose here.

For 2011 coming, hoping for more guidance....

that's all for now since I'm starting to being emo again, tsk tsk tsk